I was viciously bullied through school. So much so that I really dulled myself down.
Then in my early teens my dad lost his business & we lost our house. It was hard on our family and I gained a bunch of weight and got depressed.
On my long journey back to feeling shiny I have faced many challenges that trigger that initial depression. If I gained weight, I’d be sad. If money was in lack I’d be sad. If I was rejected or bullied or harassed for simply being myself, I’d be sad.
Sometimes the sadness would be obvious and I would get onto finding the solution. But many times it was a slow drip. It would creep in and devour me from a culmination of small moments of these particular triggers.
I came to realise that life isn’t leading us to a utopia, this is it, but we are giving our time and focus to low vibe moments.
I stumbled for years trying to figure it all out. Trying to enjoy my youth, have fun, be silly, explore and experience. This always left long term solution seeking on the back burner because, I just couldn’t be F*^%ed AND I didn’t have any proof around me that there was a better way.
I exercised like crazy and never got thinner. I worked like a dog and never got richer. I fell in love with myself and still got bullied, rejected and cast out in the cold. And on top of that I got sick with a multitude of health conditions.
After A LOT of stumbling and silent screams (most of the time) to the universe for a better way. I was guided to better ways. Easier ways. Ways that didn’t have to take away all the fun I wanted to have. Ways that didn’t force me to limit my spending, my eating, my being who I wanna be. Now I feel happy, healthy and excited, every day!
Notice, I didn’t say all day every day. I have my moments and I have my people that hold space for those moments (I love you guys)
But they would tell you I’m usually laughing once the tears have come, once the moment has flowed through me. And I’m ready to play and find the better feeling again.
That’s why I make it my mission to help others ‘feel good anyway’ because you know what? There’s a ton of stuff we can’t control. But we can control that!
Do you know how to feel good in every moment?