So what a lot of people don’t know about me from the last 8-10 years is all of the health stuff I experienced that lead me to what I now do today.
Unlike what seems to be on trend now, I didn’t record, photograph or document all of my lowest moments. I was in them alone and documenting that pain was the last thing on my mind.
So to recap….. I havent been able to properly digest bread or dairy since having to have a months worth of antibiotics in 2011 for my wisdom tooth removal. Back then we didnt have names for this but now its called IBS and leaky gut syndrome. I had ongoing issues with bladder infections, kidney function and thrush infections ensued. I then developed a benign tumor on my vocal chords which demonised once I cut dairy and most alcohol out of my system but i had to quit pursing singing as a career. I started having major abdomen and back pain in 2014 that no doctors could tell me why. I got glandular fever which became chronic fatigue as I couldn’t afford / had no time to be off work to recover. I then started getting chronic tension nerve spasms in my hips, back, shoulders and neck into my face. And unless I was basically removing myself from the world as we know it, only eating fresh produce and drinking only water and exercising minimum an hour every day …. I would feel some if not all of these things. And I was only in my mid 20’s.
Add in some depression and anxiety that comes with living alone in a country away from family, being single when you have always dreamed of having someone to do life with and making minimum wage for working your butt off to simply pay the bills.
Gaaahhhhhh ew that was a fun paragraph to write. It amazes me that I wallowed in that mess for so long and that I blindly allowed myself to be given the run around by so many professionals and not take more action myself. But when you’re young you wanna be able to have fun, to go out and do stupid stuff and her silly with your friends. It wasnt until mid 2018 that I was in a doctors office after being locked in a back spasm for weeks and having to fill out a symptoms checklist that this doctor said to me “you know its not normal to feel these kind of symptoms in your 20s let alone for most of your 20s”
To say my mind was blown would be a bit of an understatement.
I knew there weren’t other people around me who would get so debilitated all the time like me but I just assumed this was pretty normal (or it was my fault) as no one had ever invested enough to take the responsibility to tell me I shouldn’t be feeling like this. Most previous doctors had spent about 30 seconds on history and never asked about symptoms except the ones in the moment.
At this point in 2018 I was seeing 3 different doctors who were telling me different things and wanting to do different tests. Because of the ongoing pain i had experienced in my abdomen most months since first attempting to come off the pill in 2014, they wanted to start testing me for PCOS (poly cystic ovary syndrome) and Endometriosis. One prescribed me heavy pain meds and muscle relaxants for my back that did nothing to help and tore my stomach apart. And one was the aforementioned doctor who gave me some incredible advise for both my mind and my body to start looking into preventative gut health. I really didn't want to find out that i had a major problem. At this stage i didn't want a label from someone who wouldn't know how to fix me, i didn't want something to place focus on, to know what was 'wrong' with me. I wanted to clear that space in my mind to DECIDE for myself!
Little did this doctor know I had already been in touch with a few people who were already in the business im now in. Id been looking into these natural products that were apparently helping not just people like me but anyone to feel like a super human (like our bodies should when they are naturally thriving and supported). I was then introduced to my now dear friend and mentor who gave me some of hers for free and told me to call her in a few days.
I called her the next afternoon like a drug addict and said “I’m all in”.
(I hadn’t gone to the bathroom for a week until that day so I was pretty sold tbh hahahahaha)
Since that moment I’ve been on the most incredible rollercoaster of my life so far. From that moment I decided (like an insane person) to not go back to the doctors. I decided to stop taking the contraceptive pill that id been wanting to stop (and had tried to stop) for many years.
**thats another story but previously when I had tried to stop this pill id had nightmare symptoms I don’t even wanna go back to.
I was also about to embark on a two month trip to India with very little money in the bank after paying all the doctors in previous weeks.
So needless to say I had all but given up. I figured if it was my time to go it was my time to go and I wasn’t gonna put my trip to India on hold (like the docs wanted me to)
I was turning myself into a human experiment to see that if I made THE DECISION to heal, THE DECISION to turn this thing around for me and THE DECISION to share the journey in order to help others……… then I would either die doing that….. or I would prove my theory correct.
Well look its been 6 months. Ive been to 5 countries. Ive pushed boundaries with my consumption. Ive run one retreat and assisted on another. Ive moved to Bali. Ive enjoyed having alcohol again. Ive finally learnt to surf. Ive learnt to ride a scooter. Ive met so many amazing people and connected with thousands more online! Ive got an amazing client base and even brighter team of people that I get to coach everyday through the process of creating their dream lives.
And I haven’t gotten sick.