A month ago a dear friend challenged me to commit to meditating everyday. Ive always been so in tune with my intuition and the past two years of my life every time ive trusted my intuition it has lead me to moments and creations of ABSOLUTE MAGIC. So much so that is scares the shit out of me.
I was excited about this challenge as I knew I still had blocks remaining between my current energies and the energy of the life I want to create and attract. What I wasn’t prepared for was the dis-ease and the anger and the fear that would arise every morning in my seated stillness. I was expecting to find the peace and clarity that I have found previously when ive committed to this practise but instead I found the blocks I was asking to remove - and it hasn’t been pleasant.
When you get that in tune with this level of awareness it can almost be too much. Especially when suddenly my physical manifestations challenge everything I feel to be the truth. I hate doubting the very knowledge that seems to come so naturally and deep from within me. Perhaps even that awareness is the block. The awareness that, although most people would call me a fool for trusting something that cant be seen, felt, heard, tasted or touched, I hold my trust in it because only I know what my truth is.
I dont think that feeling more is something to afraid of but we are afraid, we are all afraid of being hurt and disappointed and we sabotage ourselves in the day to day. We avoid peeling back all the bullshit in our own minds - the thoughts in our head that aren’t all the truth because its the human condition to feel like we aren’t good enough just as we are.But we are always and IN ALL WAYS everything just as we are.
Anything extra that comes along is just like a wonderful extra thing for us to enjoy on top of our full inner abundance
I dont know what else I want to even write about this. It is you, it always is. And when you can understand that and embrace that it releases the resistance for everything else to flow and fall into place.