This is my fear
Opened in front of you all
Ready to be ridiculed and reduced till there is nothing left to give
At least thats the expectation I build up in my mind
For past experience showed me that so many become disconnected and unkind
Still I open my eyes and my heart everyday
And everyday I am able to see so much beauty in my way
And those wonderful ones who see it too.
The willingness and vulnerability of being present in the very deliciousness of this moment, hold more magic that I could possibly describe.
For everything eventually comes to an end, but for now, we are here and it’s so extraordinary.
I do fear the unknown. The knowing that things will end. The knowing ill have to go back to a place im afraid to be.
To face off with whatever awaits me there that is part of my story, my journey, my healing, my growth.
The only way, is to do it alone... and yet im not alone.
Ive met so many parts of my soul along the way and the more I leap into each day with my heart shining though my eyes
Like an untouched, un hurt child
The more I find you, find them and in turn find more of myself.
Even if not physically connected, as we move on our own paths to our own destinies,
I hold those moments in time. Those pieces of my heart with me always.
They are the strength I come back to, the love that drives me forward.
The reminder that there is a world possible that I previously only dreamed of.
Perhaps everything that is happening is simply preparing us for all that we have asked for.
That road can look ragged and unpleasant and somedays may feel unfair and nonsensical.
Yes what ive asked for, what we have all asked for. Joy, connection, abundance and experience.
And to get there, to see it, to attract it we must first become it.
Must peel back the many layers of life that have left us scarred, fearful, feeling unworthy and betrayed.
But whatever force brought us here in the first place, I dont believe we were given lives that we aren’t strong enough to live.
And perhaps In the adventure of finding out why we chose to come back here
We might find everything that we desire and be able to hold out a hand to help another.
Hold each other once more like we once did.
Be surprised by the movements of time and how they are always leading us to the truth we long for.
Thats buried deep within us waiting to surface to shine and feel free of pain once more.