I’m not ‘sober’ because I never had an addiction. However, I had almost every other problem that all stemmed back to drinking.
People always ask me “but whyyyy??” as if there is a quick answer. I’ve considered just saying I’m a recovering alcoholic just to save time as no one actually wants to hear the answer anyway. I don’t rule out alcohol all together (I actually love and miss getting on the beers) it’s just not a MUST in my life.
I’ve been sexually harassed, abused and (in a couple of cases) assaulted on multiple occasions, starting when I was in high school. All because of the affects of alcohol on both myself and/or the male. The gray areas that exist in human interaction, when under the influence, have allowed for experiences that I never want anyone to find themselves in.
When I was 24 I started developing a series of chronic symptoms. Pain, extreme bloating, renal infections, thrush, candida, extreme fatigue, weight fluctuation, a tumour in my throat .... honestly this list goes on for the following 6 years.
I spent most of my 20s and my travels and my time away from my jobs being hungover and doing the same merry go round of work, drink, regret, repeat. Having all these ideas for a life but never doing anything with them.
In my 29th year after years of being passed around or cast out by men, doctors, friends and myself I started having suicidal thoughts, but only on the odd occasions I would drink.
Now I am 32 and will very rarely find me sipping alcohol. Becuase all of these problems seemed to improve or disappear completely when I removed this depressant poison from my body and environment.
I have nothing against those who drink, like I said, I miss that feeling it gives sometimes.
But not enough to go back to that life. I now have a body that is so healthy I feel like I’m getting to redo my 20s! I’ve created a business out of my passions. I’ve had beautiful experiences with men, with friends and the community I am creating and attracting.
Alcohol is not a must for me. It’s not even in my top 100 priorities. Because this life is way too good to waste being hungover, depressed, sick or filled with regret.